Exposing myself

As voyeurish as it might sound, I decided to fathom the depth of my being..coz the individual who is uncertain about his real character can have no peace of mind..I consider myself as a dreamy dude who many a times dwells on a wish fulfillment sequence to achieve what he can not in real life. I long to be a superstar, be always haunted by female fans, i tried to live (and still do) a life of a super cricketer, a super actor ending into a most powerful super politician..

I think I m confused about my TYPE, a scandalous example of a cluttered multitude thoughts. A spilit personality which could be so opposite in thought, behaviour and nature.. They say a man who is not truly settled in his mind about his own character is hardly honest, but then honesty and transparency make you vulnerable.. I have been honest on various occasions and committed crime on even more occasions..the gud thing is that I dun regret either.. I am happy that many a times i forego my self respect in achieving few gains...ppl who know me wouldnt even believe that I have done so many bad things (something still keeping me from writing in details bout my vices ) coz for those ppl or in front of those ppl I have shown equally philonthropic karma. I have read somewhere that nothing but dishonesty can possible lead us to self-deception, I fail to understand these "we-can-heal-the-world" thots...You look around you, how many dishonest people are serving the fury of almighty...they all are enjoying the fruit of life in a very comfortable and lavish way...behind every success there is a crime..cudnt agree more.. these thots somehow has been imbibed within my soul, and I would like to taste success going on wrong track rather than otherwise...THATS MOST NONSENSE COMMENT I'VE EVER HEARD (words in caps written by angel in me)...

more on sins, my sins...in ma next blog...